I wrote a post on August 19th, scheduled it, and then put it back in draft.
I was afraid to publish it.
I censored myself.
I guess I grew some cajones today, because I’ve decided to screw it and publish it anyway. Come what may:
I will probably never be big
and you may never like me
or ever know me.
But I no longer care
who follows me and who doesn’t.
The quantities of my stumbles, likes, comments, or stats.
You will never notice me in the crowd
but I will still be there, with my two kids, my iphone
and the frazzled look on my unwashed face.
I’m sick of your posts filled with reviews and thousands of ways to enter.
I hate your retweets of all the popular bloggers.
I’m not going to follow you so you follow me.
I will not try so hard to be noticed by someone
who is no better than me just because they have thousands of hits a day.
Some of you bore me, with your multiple posts a day,
your instagram pics of your dinner or the same hairstyle you’ve always had.
And I’ve never cared about your Klout score.
I hate one sided conversations.
I’m not going to care anymore that you don’t talk to me on twitter.
No more random memes. Or linkys. Or triberr.
None of all these different ways to get you to see me.
I’m tired of these stupid twitter feuds over nothing.
I’m done thinking you’re better than me (you’re not).
I write because I have something to say (not because it’s sponsored).
I hate that my google reader is filled with 100s of unread posts of people I should be following.
I know there are some amazing voices out there.
Undiscovered. Unstumbled. Unnoticed on people’s blogrolls.
I hate that I may never find you.
Or your instagram pictures of adorable kids I want to see.
I probably don’t follow you on twitter.
Or know that your husband died unless some big blogger retweeted the news.
Or know that you’re sick. Or depressed or suffering.
I hope to find you on the band.
The rest of this: it’s all bullshit.
It’s smoke and mirrors.
So if you notice (which you won’t) that I stopped following you on twitter,
or unsubscribed you from my reader,
or stopped commenting.
This was why.